My name is Sheila. I'm LDS, I'm a convert and I love Jesus Christ. † I've lived in Utah since October 11, 2011. I wish to turn in my mission papers the Summer of 2013. I'm a Target employee. I hate my job. I'm pretty good at drawing. Tenth Avenue North, 311, and Paolo Nutini are among my many favourite musical artists. I try my best to love my life. (updated 1/29/12)
Sheila;
When I feel alone, my mind floats back to the memory of being with him. He was so affectionate, tender, kind, perfect. But he didn’t want me anymore, and so he couldn’t be mine either. And now he’s happy with someone else. He’s affectionate, tender, kind and perfect to her. He loves her— not me. But he’s still this perfect person in my mind. My first love. And I’m— I’m just the girl he dated before he met the one.
To care so much about one person
And to think about them
And to have them make me laugh and smile.
And I want them to love me too.
Not creepily and obsessively.
Not controlling or selfishly.
I just need someone who cares.
Who will actually fight to be in my life,
Even when I try to push ‘em out
Cos “life gets tough sometimes.”
I want someone to try and show that they care.
Cos I know I’ll always do whatever is in my power to do the very same.
:(
I started institute the 27th of August— woke up at 5am, showered and got myself ready, left the house at 6:15am and walked over to the institute building. I listened to hymns the entire way down and admired the scenery and witnessed the sky turn from darkness to brightness. That’s when I stopped to take this photo. In that walk I felt such a strong spirit. I arrived at the building at 6:45am, class started at 7am, and I just attended class after class after class. Six classes later, it was 1:15pm and I felt so full of wisdom, so full of peace. I’ve found myself awake so late tonight, only because I am so excited to do the same today. I can’t wait to be filled with amazing knowledge about my existence and to learn how to be closer to my Father in Heaven. I am so blessed— I KNOW with all my heart that this gospel is real and true. I can’t wait to share it with the world. (:
